Sooo it’s been a while! I mean, I’ve been too busy to sit and write a whole blog post, but to me, it’s insane that I’ve been so unable to express myself in my escape that is my writing and poetry.
My mental health has been that deep in the GUTTER.
This poem is the simplest way to put the way I’ve been feeling. I mean, to a degree, I’m out of it and I feel I’m 80% back to my “normal” self, but the shit keeps creeping up and I’m trying my hardest not to fall back into it.
I’ve been telling people I’m completely cool now, but I don’t think that’s the truth. There’s been a shift. I just feel very uncaring about a lot of things at the moment.
I talk about this a little in the latest episode of my podcast with Hannah May (casual self promotion – subscribe and listen on Apple Podcasts, Spotify and Anchor by searching “Thoughts & Things”) – and I do think it’s helped put muchos things into perspective.
Talking about it DOES help – but it’s so fucking hard to do so.
It’s so hard to express how you’re feeling when it makes no sense, and you’re AWARE it makes no sense.
You’re aware that life isn’t “bad”. Nothing’s externally “wrong”. People in life are very much worse off that you are.
Then the guilt sets in because how dare you feel shit about your life?
How dare you feel shit about yourself?
I’m not entirely sure where I’m going with this – just that it’s been tough as hell, and it’s evidently tough as HELLY HELL for all those who have actual mental health issues.
I beg, don’t dismiss them. Shout out to the people in my life battling their demons – going through and working through their things.
I want to write more, but I’m currently typing this on a cold ass coach to London and I’m over this journey already.
But yeah ANYWAY, sharp turn, make sure you check out:
My other blog posts – OOOO CHILE I’ve been going through some things huh?
My podcast – Thoughts & Things (with the goddess that is Hannah May)
My Main Instagram – @lizkamille
Dance Instagram – @lizkamilledance
Writing Instagram – @lizkamillewrites
My book, Me, My Thoughts & I, – here on my website